Ok, this is my first CM fanfiction,  so if people could tell me what they think, or tell me about any errors before i post it in a community that would be great.

"Keep your private life private" I think that’s the first thing I ever learnt.  Don’t let people see the real you.  For years I lived like that, I didn’t tell anyone much about who I was, because they didn't need to know.  Then I joined the BAU, everyone was so kind, after the initial shakiness that is.  And it wasn’t long before I felt like I could really open up to these people and show them the real me.  I hadn’t worked there long when JJ asked me how I did it; how I saw everything we did and didn’t flinch.  I wanted to tell her, it does affect me, I go home and morn for those poor people we couldn’t save.  But Hotch came in, so I made an excuse, it wouldn’t do for the boss to think I was weak.  After that I tried being more open, I even told Morgan about a date I had.  Then after the case we worked for my mother, my hard work was rewarded.  The night we closed the case JJ showed up on my doorstep, drenched in rain.  That night I told her everything.   JJ showed me that it’s ok to feel, to show that you care.  And for that I will always love her, and I don’t care who knows it.

i am also thinking i might do a "50 lines about JJ and Emily"  i have only just started  (i have 4)  but i think it will be fun to write, and something new for me. 

The rain pounds down
Ghosts are all around
Memory’s from another life,
Bodies and the bloody knife.
Alone, afraid and unwanted.
Yes I was daunted. 
Running from the world
A whole new one unfurled.
A second birth 
Things I can’t unearth.
Memory’s hidden deep.
Only remembered in my sleep.
Hidden from public eye
My heart left alone to die.
Ghosts from the past.
Caught up to me at last.
My private torment
Exposed without consent. 
Looks filled with shame
Makes my insides burn
Now I’m siting in the rain
Thinking about running again.

Ok this will be all for today. You dont get my other fic until i work out how to post it  as its for older readers,  This ones called Rely on me.
i would like to say this once and only once, i dont own any charicters. I also will often take "creative liberties" at the time of Kathy and Elliots split.